The Book

My life is a Book.
You read me by observing my life.
What I do and what I say.
How I respond to situations.

I turn to a new page each day.
The page is blank.
As I move through my day
I write the script of my life.

I want you to read this book.
I want this book to be interesting.
I want this book to challenge your emotions.
I want this book to have a happy ending.

What is the book you are writing?

Making A Difference

Making a difference.

I used to think that this meant being involved in some grand and master plan, but in fact it simply starts by how I lead my life...live my life. Not just in public, but especially in those moments when I am by myself, the only physical observer.

For even though I am by myself, that is, no other Human Being is present, the simple fact is that I am not alone and never shall be. There will always and forever be at least two entities present when I think I am alone.

The first is my spirit and the second and most important the God-Energy of the Cosmic Order to which I am a part and eternally linked.

Touching Hearts

There is no more to say, the matter is closed. I have tried to reach out to you, but I know you only want to hear something that I cannot articulate. You want answers, but really what you want is for what happened to not have happened. But its too late. I think you want an apology for something that I am not sorry for. You want it all right in your World...just as we all do. I do not begrudge you that. I just can't put it right I'm afraid. I cannot change the past. What is different is how I think about the past, what I have done or did not do. What reactions people displayed. I do think differently about those things because now I am reflecting upon them.

I don't believe that anything I say will give you peace of mind. You probably want closure, but I suspect the hurt is deep. So deep that I doubt I have enough years left in me to heal the pain for you. I will not come to you on my knees asking forgiveness. For me I don't need it, for there is nothing I seek forgiveness for. You on the other hand feel the hurt. But do you really understand me. Are you in my mind looking out at my World and the things that I have faced. These things that have caused me to make the decisions that I have made. No, you do not know the inner workings of my mind, my thinking process or what I feel.

So please do not judge me based on your narrow vision of the World. You neither have the depth of maturity or the breadth of experience. Your World is still young and vengeful. Even across the miles I feel the strain of resentment the longing to see me fall, the desire to have me erased. But I am here and you are there. Do not hold that hate in your heart. Take the blackness away, let it go, let me go. Live your life with joy and see me as a passing.

If you do not understand, then take a learning from that. Learn that there are some things in life that we will never fully comprehend. I think that your character is so strong that you may struggle to hear my explanation anyway. Its most likely that I will only add fuel to the fire. It may not be the best way, but it is a way to defuse the fire and that is to extinguish the flame of hate and dampen the burned feelings. Lets not make any more fires. Lets leave this charcoaled situation to dry out so that the winds of change carry the the ashes far away into the cosmos.

I will always love you for who you are and for the memory that lightens my heart. My spirit will always be with you as you travel along life's road. Perhaps some day, some other time, some other dimension, we will come together again and our hearts will touch once more. The light of the God-Energy in me embraces the light of the God-Energy in you.

Goodbye my darlings.